Time really flies.. just another 3 days, I will be in my 31st week of pregnancy. Just 9 weeks more to my delivery and only 7 weeks more to start my maternity leaves!
Oh gosh~~ I start to have mixed feelings in some ways.. Everything of my life got to 'restart' again. I'm gonna be a 'new mum' all over again after 4 years. The thoughts of having to carry, to feed, to bathe, to look after a newborn suddenly seems so unfamiliar to me.
In summary, I'm scare yet excited...
I'm afraid I won't be able to handle it, I'm afraid I will cry even for just a very minor thing. I'm afraid I will neglect Fayth. There's just so many things that I'm afraid I can't do it, I can't handle the upcoming stress.
While I'm excited in another way... this will be another new journey of my life. My new life will consist of Hubby, Fayth and baby. It's no longer just the 3 of us but 4. I'm a mum of 2 at the age of 27!!
That means, I will need to do alot of beauty regime in order not to look haggard and old! I don't want to look like age 37 yet I'm only in my 27! I HAVE to gain back my weight and waist to pre-pregnancy figure of 44kg, waistline of 24". I want to fit back into my jeans and dresses!! No saggy breast and no excess fats please... It's horrible and scary and it will definitely bring down my self esteem and confidence. I want to be a modern, pretty mama, not an auntie that you will see in those wet market cause I don't go market, I only frequent to NTUC and Cold Storage!
Gosh~~ seems like I'm suffering pre-natal depression??!! Hahaha~~~~ no la, I'm not. :)
Anyway, I will think more of the positive and happy things. I will enjoy my final trimester of pregnancy to the fullest. As much as I wanted to enjoy, I'm getting heavier each passing days... Anything that requires me to bend down or lift up my legs like getting up from bed/floor, bending down to pick up Fayth's toys, using a squatted toilet bowl, bathing Fayth, wearing my short has become an uneasy task for me now. Much less to say wash my feet properly when I bathe or to cut my toe nails! So, this is 1 of a good excuse for me to go pedicure every 2 weeks.
I just had my pedicure done last Sunday. I told the lady: 'Pls help me wash my feet and clean my inner nails properly as I haven't been able to clean them for 3 weeks...' Guess that lady must be feeling gross by just looking at my feet! Hahahaha~~~~
Think more or less I've decided on baby's name. It will be either Mikayle or Kayle, meaning 'Gift From God'. Chinese name will decide after baby is born but we've come up a few list.. Jia Xin, Jia Xuan, Jia Le.
There are just so many things I need to do and think before and after delivery which I had ended up with a 'To do list', 'To buy list' and 'To bring list' in order not to miss out anything important especially so IF I were to deliver early without having my hospital bag pack, my hubby will know what to bring according to my list.
Another few updates: Baby has been moving and turning more and more violently recently, maybe of the 'lack of space' in my cute little tummy. 1 of my colleague even seen the 'war' coming from my tummy. Once, I put hubby's hand onto my tummy while he was reading paper and he suddenly go: "wa! what is she doing inside?!" So now hubby know why I'm always awake in wee hours....
And to date, No stretch marks, yet (touchwood!). Occasionally do have some itchiness and I controlled myself not to scratch, just a little hand rubbing do helps a little but better then nothing!
To pen it off, I'm going for my monthly check up next Tuesday. Shall see how much weight gain!!
Till then~~~
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
My date with LFC (1)
As mentioned, Sunday was the long waited 8 years that Liverpool had last visited Singapore.
Set off to the stadium at 4.30pm, hoping to get a good seat with good view BUT when we were there, the car parks is almost 80% FULL not to said any good seats inside....with the match start at 7pm.
Mr Sun was still shinning strongly onto my right face, lucky I've applied my dearest SPF 30+ Sun block cream. Took lots of photos with my Sony 10mp camera BUT with my very-good-seat-view and fully zoom function of the camera still makes the photos..........
Don't say so much, let my photos do the talking. Hahaha~~~ will upload the photos SOON.
Set off to the stadium at 4.30pm, hoping to get a good seat with good view BUT when we were there, the car parks is almost 80% FULL not to said any good seats inside....with the match start at 7pm.
Mr Sun was still shinning strongly onto my right face, lucky I've applied my dearest SPF 30+ Sun block cream. Took lots of photos with my Sony 10mp camera BUT with my very-good-seat-view and fully zoom function of the camera still makes the photos..........
Don't say so much, let my photos do the talking. Hahaha~~~ will upload the photos SOON.
Friday, July 24, 2009
I dreamt of my dear friend...
Yesterday, I dreamt of my dear friend. A friend who had just passed away recently.
This morning, I sms-ed my buddies...
Me --> Xiaomei, Joanna, Jianzhong & Thomas: I dreamt of Keng Teck ytd. V weird dream. In my dream I still asked myself: tot he died ald? Dun ask me wat is e dream abt coz I oso not sure..
Joanna --> Me: Actually few weeks ago I also dreamt of him and I oso know he ald died inside my dream. Dunno y we'r still with him.
Jianzhong --> Me: Hahaha, so lucky.
Me --> Jianzhong: He got leg pain is it? Coz seems like he's telling me his leg pain..
Jianzhong --> Me: Ya, I think he said before..
Thomas --> Me: O.. Really. Wa lau.. Keng Teck died liao still thinking of you. Dun even come talk to me. I his friend also leh.. Sigh..
Me --> Thomas: Hahaha... Jo oso got dream of him leh.
Thomas --> Me: Wa lau wa lau.. he passed away liao only thinking about girls but not boy friends...So sad. Next who turn? Xiaomei or Lilian to dream of him?
Me --> Thomas: Hahaha... ok ok I'll let Mei and Lian knw tat if they oso dream of him, ask him go find u la.. hahaha
Thomas --> Me: Dun wan la, I dun wan to see him again. Forget it.
This morning, I sms-ed my buddies...
Me --> Xiaomei, Joanna, Jianzhong & Thomas: I dreamt of Keng Teck ytd. V weird dream. In my dream I still asked myself: tot he died ald? Dun ask me wat is e dream abt coz I oso not sure..
Joanna --> Me: Actually few weeks ago I also dreamt of him and I oso know he ald died inside my dream. Dunno y we'r still with him.
Jianzhong --> Me: Hahaha, so lucky.
Me --> Jianzhong: He got leg pain is it? Coz seems like he's telling me his leg pain..
Jianzhong --> Me: Ya, I think he said before..
Thomas --> Me: O.. Really. Wa lau.. Keng Teck died liao still thinking of you. Dun even come talk to me. I his friend also leh.. Sigh..
Me --> Thomas: Hahaha... Jo oso got dream of him leh.
Thomas --> Me: Wa lau wa lau.. he passed away liao only thinking about girls but not boy friends...So sad. Next who turn? Xiaomei or Lilian to dream of him?
Me --> Thomas: Hahaha... ok ok I'll let Mei and Lian knw tat if they oso dream of him, ask him go find u la.. hahaha
Thomas --> Me: Dun wan la, I dun wan to see him again. Forget it.
I am....
EXCITED.
I am going to the National Stadium today.
I am going to watch the Liverpool having their Training Session.
I am going to..... get their autograph???
By right I should be meeting up with the ZPGY.... sorry!
*Wink*
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Fayth is unhappy...
I had a terrible morning on Tuesday. For the 1st time, Fayth was crying, hugging me so tight and keep telling me she doesn't want to go school.
The night before, my in law already told me Fayth doesn't want to attend school the next day. I find it strange as normally she loves to go school so I kept asking her what is wrong, did she had some arguments with her peers yet she just keep crying...
I dragged her to school, asked her Form teacher if she knows anything happened. Teacher said Fayth and her friends were fine, never heard or seen any arguments between themselves.
What teacher could think of that trigger her to throw tantrum might be because of a 'music and present' game. Children got to sit in a circle, teacher will then pass the present around. When the music stop and whoever was holding onto the present will get to bring the present home. Fayth was not the one so she might be upset due to this. If this is really the cause, then Fayth is someone who must WIN... haiz.. got to teach her there's ups and downs, win and loss already. Moreover, it's just a game.
Her teacher called me after the class ended. Informed me that Fayth doesn't seems to like her 'meimei' (unborn baby) because of some conversation between she and the teacher. Fayth seems to feel very jealous about the unborn.
From now onwards, whatever we say and do must be very careful about her feelings. Will try to involve her in choosing baby things or any other baby discussion.. It's sad to see Fayth behaving this way. She must have thought that we no longer love her.
Went to Ion Orchard in the evening, not because for the official opening of the mall but because Hubby wanted to change the LV Card Holder to wallet instead as he find the price is more practical to buy a wallet.
LV outlet at Ion is so big, a 2 storeys outlet with many designs being displayed out. Unlike the outlet in Ngee Ann City whereby we would need to refer to the catalogue.
Brought Fayth along with us since hubby is free in the noon to go home and fetch her out. She enjoyed playing the indoor playground at 5th floor paragon. After that, dinner at Crystal Jade.
Home Sweet Home at 9pm. Before Fayth went to bed, i made her promised me to attend school happily the next day. She agreed.
Yesterday morning while walking to the school with her.....
Fayth: Mummy, later when yeye come fetch me back, I go pluck flowers for you ok?
Me: Ok, but 1 small flower will do.
Fayth: No, I pluck 3 flowers.
Me: Why 3?
Fayth: 1 for mummy, 1 for papa and 1 for enen.
Me: *So sweet*
Was raining almost the whole day and when I reached home at night....
Fayth: Mummy, today I never pluck flowers for u.
Me: Why?
Fayth: Because is raining and yeye said cannot pluck so I never.
Me: Never mind, it's ok.
Fayth: Tomorrow I pluck for u.
Me: Ok. *smile*
This morning while walking to school with her...
Me: Are you going to give me flowers today?
Fayth: Yes, later when yeye come fetch me.
Me: If raining then don't go ok. But where is the place you pluck the flowers?
Fayth: Not here, is at the other side. The flowers here not nice.
Me: Ok, tonight mummy come back you give me.
So, is there any flowers tonight???
To be continue....
The night before, my in law already told me Fayth doesn't want to attend school the next day. I find it strange as normally she loves to go school so I kept asking her what is wrong, did she had some arguments with her peers yet she just keep crying...
I dragged her to school, asked her Form teacher if she knows anything happened. Teacher said Fayth and her friends were fine, never heard or seen any arguments between themselves.
What teacher could think of that trigger her to throw tantrum might be because of a 'music and present' game. Children got to sit in a circle, teacher will then pass the present around. When the music stop and whoever was holding onto the present will get to bring the present home. Fayth was not the one so she might be upset due to this. If this is really the cause, then Fayth is someone who must WIN... haiz.. got to teach her there's ups and downs, win and loss already. Moreover, it's just a game.
Her teacher called me after the class ended. Informed me that Fayth doesn't seems to like her 'meimei' (unborn baby) because of some conversation between she and the teacher. Fayth seems to feel very jealous about the unborn.
From now onwards, whatever we say and do must be very careful about her feelings. Will try to involve her in choosing baby things or any other baby discussion.. It's sad to see Fayth behaving this way. She must have thought that we no longer love her.
Went to Ion Orchard in the evening, not because for the official opening of the mall but because Hubby wanted to change the LV Card Holder to wallet instead as he find the price is more practical to buy a wallet.
LV outlet at Ion is so big, a 2 storeys outlet with many designs being displayed out. Unlike the outlet in Ngee Ann City whereby we would need to refer to the catalogue.
Brought Fayth along with us since hubby is free in the noon to go home and fetch her out. She enjoyed playing the indoor playground at 5th floor paragon. After that, dinner at Crystal Jade.
Home Sweet Home at 9pm. Before Fayth went to bed, i made her promised me to attend school happily the next day. She agreed.
Yesterday morning while walking to the school with her.....
Fayth: Mummy, later when yeye come fetch me back, I go pluck flowers for you ok?
Me: Ok, but 1 small flower will do.
Fayth: No, I pluck 3 flowers.
Me: Why 3?
Fayth: 1 for mummy, 1 for papa and 1 for enen.
Me: *So sweet*
Was raining almost the whole day and when I reached home at night....
Fayth: Mummy, today I never pluck flowers for u.
Me: Why?
Fayth: Because is raining and yeye said cannot pluck so I never.
Me: Never mind, it's ok.
Fayth: Tomorrow I pluck for u.
Me: Ok. *smile*
This morning while walking to school with her...
Me: Are you going to give me flowers today?
Fayth: Yes, later when yeye come fetch me.
Me: If raining then don't go ok. But where is the place you pluck the flowers?
Fayth: Not here, is at the other side. The flowers here not nice.
Me: Ok, tonight mummy come back you give me.
So, is there any flowers tonight???
To be continue....
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Last Trimester
Today, I'm in my 29 weeks/203 days of pregnancy.
Just 11 weeks/77 days to my delivery.
Just 9 weeks/66 days to start my Maternity Leaves on 22nd Sept.
Yeah~~ I'll be taking my Maternity Leaves 10 days before my due date on 3rd Oct.
I want to spend some precious time with Fayth.
I want to rest more before baby is born.
I need to pack and get prepare for the delivery.
I'm counting down and time just flies!
Just 11 weeks/77 days to my delivery.
Just 9 weeks/66 days to start my Maternity Leaves on 22nd Sept.
Yeah~~ I'll be taking my Maternity Leaves 10 days before my due date on 3rd Oct.
I want to spend some precious time with Fayth.
I want to rest more before baby is born.
I need to pack and get prepare for the delivery.
I'm counting down and time just flies!
Baby Movements
Interesting article.
Head, Elbows, Knees and Toes??
Sometime during the second trimester you will begin feeling your baby move. The first movements will feel more like butterflies in your tummy, or light tickling coming from the inside. As your baby gets bigger you will start feeling light taps and kicks letting you know that your baby is awake and is playing inside his little world.
As you go through the third trimester, the movements become more definite and more detectable. You are able to detect a kick from a punch as well as feel your baby flip and roll. As the baby gets bigger you start to guess what it is you see moving along your belly. Is it an elbow? Is it your babies foot?
Eventually the baby gets too big to do the flips and rolls, so he tried to stretch and play in other ways. He may start head butting you in your bladder, making you have to visit the bathroom constantly and find that nothing is coming out. He may stick out his elbow, poking you in the side as to say, “Mommy, I am here!”
If he is head down you might feel him stretching into your ribs, using his feet to push against your bones and muscles. You might feel pressure at the top of your uterus from the baby pushing on the inside. If you put your hand and push back you may feel a little ball. It makes you have to ask, is that his knee or his heel? You can start playing a game with your baby because he will probably move this body part to another position in your belly, which you can follow him and gently push back. You will be telling your baby, “I know you are there, I am here too.”
The movements of your baby are definitely the best part of pregnancy and as they get stronger in the third trimester, they make up for all the aches and pains you may have had in the first trimester from the morning sickness and fatigue you probably felt. The movements are normally the first thing a woman says that she MISSES about being pregnant, if not the only thing.
Head, Elbows, Knees and Toes??
Sometime during the second trimester you will begin feeling your baby move. The first movements will feel more like butterflies in your tummy, or light tickling coming from the inside. As your baby gets bigger you will start feeling light taps and kicks letting you know that your baby is awake and is playing inside his little world.
As you go through the third trimester, the movements become more definite and more detectable. You are able to detect a kick from a punch as well as feel your baby flip and roll. As the baby gets bigger you start to guess what it is you see moving along your belly. Is it an elbow? Is it your babies foot?
Eventually the baby gets too big to do the flips and rolls, so he tried to stretch and play in other ways. He may start head butting you in your bladder, making you have to visit the bathroom constantly and find that nothing is coming out. He may stick out his elbow, poking you in the side as to say, “Mommy, I am here!”
If he is head down you might feel him stretching into your ribs, using his feet to push against your bones and muscles. You might feel pressure at the top of your uterus from the baby pushing on the inside. If you put your hand and push back you may feel a little ball. It makes you have to ask, is that his knee or his heel? You can start playing a game with your baby because he will probably move this body part to another position in your belly, which you can follow him and gently push back. You will be telling your baby, “I know you are there, I am here too.”
The movements of your baby are definitely the best part of pregnancy and as they get stronger in the third trimester, they make up for all the aches and pains you may have had in the first trimester from the morning sickness and fatigue you probably felt. The movements are normally the first thing a woman says that she MISSES about being pregnant, if not the only thing.
Friday, July 17, 2009
The Queen
*Happy*
Hb finally completed his reservist for this year and will be coming home tonight!
I've been sleeping alone in the room, occupying the whole bed by myself for the past... 15 days as my naughty Fayth wanted to sleep with her granny.
Me: Baobei, tonight want to sleep with mummy?
Fayth: Don't want.
Me: Why?
Fayth: I want to sleep with mama (granny), don't want sleep with you.
Me: If at night monster come and catch mummy or got thunder how?
Fayth: You come and sleep inside mama's room also lor.
Me: No space for me to sleep leh.
Fayth: Have, mama and me sleep on the bed, yeye (grandfather) sleep on the mattress, you sleep on the floor lor.
Me: -.-"""
Once, I 'complaint' to hb that Fayth doesn't want to sleep with mummy...
Hb: Why you don't want sleep with mummy?
Fayth: Don't want, i want sleep with mama.
Hb: But papa go army, you must sleep with mummy if not mummy scare being alone.
Fayth: *fierce tone* Why you every time go army? Why you never come back and sleep?!
Hb: Because army need papa.
Fayth: Mummy need you to sleep with her also!
Hb: *Speechless*....
But when Hb was back during the weekend, she will come and sleep in between us during the night. Asked her go mama's room sleep as papa and mummy don't want sleep with her, she got very angry and scolded us!
Moral of the story? Fayth is the QUEEN in the family.
Hb finally completed his reservist for this year and will be coming home tonight!
I've been sleeping alone in the room, occupying the whole bed by myself for the past... 15 days as my naughty Fayth wanted to sleep with her granny.
Me: Baobei, tonight want to sleep with mummy?
Fayth: Don't want.
Me: Why?
Fayth: I want to sleep with mama (granny), don't want sleep with you.
Me: If at night monster come and catch mummy or got thunder how?
Fayth: You come and sleep inside mama's room also lor.
Me: No space for me to sleep leh.
Fayth: Have, mama and me sleep on the bed, yeye (grandfather) sleep on the mattress, you sleep on the floor lor.
Me: -.-"""
Once, I 'complaint' to hb that Fayth doesn't want to sleep with mummy...
Hb: Why you don't want sleep with mummy?
Fayth: Don't want, i want sleep with mama.
Hb: But papa go army, you must sleep with mummy if not mummy scare being alone.
Fayth: *fierce tone* Why you every time go army? Why you never come back and sleep?!
Hb: Because army need papa.
Fayth: Mummy need you to sleep with her also!
Hb: *Speechless*....
But when Hb was back during the weekend, she will come and sleep in between us during the night. Asked her go mama's room sleep as papa and mummy don't want sleep with her, she got very angry and scolded us!
Moral of the story? Fayth is the QUEEN in the family.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Fayth is sick..
Back to work today...
Urgent leave on Friday and yesterday, my baobei Princess Fayth is down with fever and that stupid temperature keep clinging onto her at between 38 degree to 39.3 degree. I'm so worried as usually her temperature will go down during the day time.
So finally, the fever went down yesterday morning if not I'm going to bring her to KKH for a blood test which I really do not want to due to the H1N1 cases in KKH...
Anyway, she's now back to her healthy naughty little girl.
She was such a good girl that I've promised to bring her down to our neighbourhood bookshop for a walk and she's allow to choose either 1 toy or a story book.
She chooses a story book but after walking around the bookshop, noticed she owned most of the books.. be it is sticker book, colouring book, puzzle book, Princess, Barney, Thomas Train, Sesame Street... you name it, she has it (almost!). So, I asked her to choose a toy instead. Very unwillingly, she managed to 'anyhow' choose a Princess toy house which she played merely half hour and ignore it already!
Haiz, that's not exactly what she wanted. She just bought for the sake of buying it. Nevermind, Hubby and I will be buying her a Princess Castle (that's what she has been asking for!) as a misery gift on behalf from her new sister.
Urgent leave on Friday and yesterday, my baobei Princess Fayth is down with fever and that stupid temperature keep clinging onto her at between 38 degree to 39.3 degree. I'm so worried as usually her temperature will go down during the day time.
So finally, the fever went down yesterday morning if not I'm going to bring her to KKH for a blood test which I really do not want to due to the H1N1 cases in KKH...
Anyway, she's now back to her healthy naughty little girl.
She was such a good girl that I've promised to bring her down to our neighbourhood bookshop for a walk and she's allow to choose either 1 toy or a story book.
She chooses a story book but after walking around the bookshop, noticed she owned most of the books.. be it is sticker book, colouring book, puzzle book, Princess, Barney, Thomas Train, Sesame Street... you name it, she has it (almost!). So, I asked her to choose a toy instead. Very unwillingly, she managed to 'anyhow' choose a Princess toy house which she played merely half hour and ignore it already!
Haiz, that's not exactly what she wanted. She just bought for the sake of buying it. Nevermind, Hubby and I will be buying her a Princess Castle (that's what she has been asking for!) as a misery gift on behalf from her new sister.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Fever and Fayth
My Princess Fayth is down with fever today...
Temperature between 37.8 degree to 39.3 degree.
Must be the virus she got it from her school. -.-"
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Me and unborn's progress
Had my monthly check up done on Tuesday noon and the pregnancy progress is good with some surprise...
1st of all, I've been a naughty girl for the month of June due to my excess eating of durians and never really control my intake of sweet drinks BUT, routine test showed that I'm sugar-free in my urine! Hohoho~~
4 weeks ago on 8th June, Doc Tan said baby is only weigh 300g and I'm only 46.5kg.
19 days later on 27th June, my GP checked my weigh was 47.4kg (1kg gained in less den 3 weeks).
Another 10 days later on 7th July, Doc Tan said baby now weigh 1kg and I'm 48.4kg (another 1kg gained in 10 days!!!)
Total gained 2kg in 1 month and baby gained 700g! Even my mil was surprised of the speed in my weigh gain. Meaning I did eat well ok!
Impressive and proud of myself especially when people still said I still look slim and pretty NOW! Hahaha~~~
Other then my cute little tummy is protruding out, people can't tell I'm actually in my 27th weeks of pregnancy from my back view.
Currently, no stretchmarks on my tummy and I'm still very hardworking in making sure I apply stretchmarks cream every night.
Please, let me remain 'stretchmarks free' even in this 2nd pregnancy!!!
Oh! I'm so excited that I'm into my 3rd trimester in 2 days time! Time flies, last trimester to go and I make sure to enjoy my 'queen' life to the fullest in this last 3 months.
11th July, Saturday. Last trimester - here I enter!!!
1st of all, I've been a naughty girl for the month of June due to my excess eating of durians and never really control my intake of sweet drinks BUT, routine test showed that I'm sugar-free in my urine! Hohoho~~
4 weeks ago on 8th June, Doc Tan said baby is only weigh 300g and I'm only 46.5kg.
19 days later on 27th June, my GP checked my weigh was 47.4kg (1kg gained in less den 3 weeks).
Another 10 days later on 7th July, Doc Tan said baby now weigh 1kg and I'm 48.4kg (another 1kg gained in 10 days!!!)
Total gained 2kg in 1 month and baby gained 700g! Even my mil was surprised of the speed in my weigh gain. Meaning I did eat well ok!
Impressive and proud of myself especially when people still said I still look slim and pretty NOW! Hahaha~~~
Other then my cute little tummy is protruding out, people can't tell I'm actually in my 27th weeks of pregnancy from my back view.
Currently, no stretchmarks on my tummy and I'm still very hardworking in making sure I apply stretchmarks cream every night.
Please, let me remain 'stretchmarks free' even in this 2nd pregnancy!!!
Oh! I'm so excited that I'm into my 3rd trimester in 2 days time! Time flies, last trimester to go and I make sure to enjoy my 'queen' life to the fullest in this last 3 months.
11th July, Saturday. Last trimester - here I enter!!!
Some shoppings...
Went shopping with Mei and Jo to unwind myself for all the stress that I've been facing recently.
As usual, I bought some girls stuffs for myself...
And, it's been awhile since I last bought something for Hubby or I should said that it had been 5 years since I last bought this brand for item for him. Since is his Birthday month and I didn't get to celebrate with him nor able to treat him for a good dinner, I shall get him this instead...
A Taiga Ardoise Name Card Holder for him.
As usual, I bought some girls stuffs for myself...
Mac Select Cover Up Concealer and Mac Mineralize Loose Powder
And, it's been awhile since I last bought something for Hubby or I should said that it had been 5 years since I last bought this brand for item for him. Since is his Birthday month and I didn't get to celebrate with him nor able to treat him for a good dinner, I shall get him this instead...
A Taiga Ardoise Name Card Holder for him. Was considering to buy either a wallet or a name card holder for him because the wallet that I bought for him 5 years ago (a LV monogrammed 6 cards wallet) was wear and tear which LV staffs said is beyond repair.
Hubby only like Monogrammed print for wallet design so play safe, I better choose name card holder instead as he also did mentioned to me before that he wanted to changed his card holder.
He is someone who is very careful with his wallet, hand phone and briefcase. He's not the kind of man that will place his wallet behind his pants pocket. It will either be in his front pocket or you will see him holding it on his hand. This is also why is worth to buy something expensive for him.
Will 'check' with him what other print he like for wallet before buying it the next time.... perhaps another 5 years later? Or when I strike 4D/ToTo!
Will 'check' with him what other print he like for wallet before buying it the next time.... perhaps another 5 years later? Or when I strike 4D/ToTo!
Giving him this surprise when he's back on Saturday!~~~
Monday, July 6, 2009
When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms
This is the most meaningful and touching email I've came across so far....
When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms
On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms.
The bridal carstopped in front of our one-room flat.
My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms.
So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.
I was a strong and happy bridegroom. This was the scene of ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money.
When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb.
She was a civil servant.
Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time.
Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy.
But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day.
I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind.
My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.
Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs.
Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.
Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant.
I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn t help doing so.
I moved Dew s hands aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.?
I ve got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her.
At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.
However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it.
No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.
Honestly,she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner.
Iwas sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together.
Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dews body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce,what will you do?
She stared at me for a few seconds without a word.
Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her.
I couldn t imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out.
Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her.
She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded.
I knew I could not hesitate any more.
When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I ve gotsomething to tell you, I said.
She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking.
I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.
She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I m serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry.
She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!
At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage.
But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in myheart.
The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day.
But I could not take back what I had said.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see.
To me her cry was actually a kind of release.
The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.
A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I sawher writing something at the table.
I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from me,but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible.
Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn t want him to see our marriage was broken.
She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning,do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?
This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me.
I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce.
From now to the end of this month,you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.
I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.
I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd.
No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully.
Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.
My wife and I hadnt had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed.
We even treated each other as a stranger.
So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy.
Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain.
From the bedroom to the sitting room,then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms.
She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don t tell our son.
I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door.
She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.
We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse.
I realized that I hadn t looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time.
I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms.
The visualization of Dew became vaguer.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as,where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc.
I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.
I didn t tell Dew about this.I felt it was easier to carry her.
Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.
She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out.
She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one.
Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled.
But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger.
I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.
Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.Our son came in at the moment.
Dad, it s time to carry mum out. He said.
To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been anessential part of his life.
She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly.
I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute.
I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway.
Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally.
I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.
Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.
I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn t notice that our life was lack of such intimacy.
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door.
I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs.
Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won t divorce. I m serious.
She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said.
I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won t divorce.
My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn t love each other any more.
Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old.
So I have to say sorry to you.
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed he door and burst into cry.
I walked downstairs and drove to the office.
When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite.
The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card.
I smiled and wrote,
I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.
When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms
On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms.
The bridal carstopped in front of our one-room flat.
My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms.
So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.
I was a strong and happy bridegroom. This was the scene of ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money.
When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb.
She was a civil servant.
Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time.
Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy.
But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day.
I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind.
My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.
Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs.
Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.
Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant.
I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn t help doing so.
I moved Dew s hands aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.?
I ve got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her.
At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.
However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it.
No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.
Honestly,she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner.
Iwas sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together.
Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dews body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce,what will you do?
She stared at me for a few seconds without a word.
Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her.
I couldn t imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out.
Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her.
She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded.
I knew I could not hesitate any more.
When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I ve gotsomething to tell you, I said.
She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking.
I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.
She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I m serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry.
She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!
At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage.
But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in myheart.
The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day.
But I could not take back what I had said.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see.
To me her cry was actually a kind of release.
The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.
A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I sawher writing something at the table.
I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from me,but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible.
Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn t want him to see our marriage was broken.
She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning,do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?
This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me.
I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce.
From now to the end of this month,you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.
I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.
I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd.
No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully.
Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.
My wife and I hadnt had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed.
We even treated each other as a stranger.
So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy.
Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain.
From the bedroom to the sitting room,then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms.
She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don t tell our son.
I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door.
She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.
We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse.
I realized that I hadn t looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time.
I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms.
The visualization of Dew became vaguer.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as,where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc.
I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.
I didn t tell Dew about this.I felt it was easier to carry her.
Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.
She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out.
She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one.
Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled.
But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger.
I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.
Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.Our son came in at the moment.
Dad, it s time to carry mum out. He said.
To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been anessential part of his life.
She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly.
I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute.
I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway.
Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally.
I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.
Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.
I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn t notice that our life was lack of such intimacy.
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door.
I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs.
Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won t divorce. I m serious.
She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said.
I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won t divorce.
My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn t love each other any more.
Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old.
So I have to say sorry to you.
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed he door and burst into cry.
I walked downstairs and drove to the office.
When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite.
The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card.
I smiled and wrote,
I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Speechless
My Heart ache till it's numb, heavy till it's sank...
My eyes tired as it's swollen, dry as it's tearless...
Filling with thoughts of the F's and the S's...
Forgive or Forget?... Cause it's impossible to Forgive AND Forget...
Stay or Separate?...
Till then, only heart aches follows.........
My eyes tired as it's swollen, dry as it's tearless...
Filling with thoughts of the F's and the S's...
Forgive or Forget?... Cause it's impossible to Forgive AND Forget...
Stay or Separate?...
Till then, only heart aches follows.........
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Legs cramp
Early morning at 6.30am today, I had my 1st leg cramp in this pregnancy. It involves my 2 legs, not 1.
Hubby not with me when the cramp strike as he's in reservist. I was in total daze, don't know what to do cause hubby will massaged my leg when I had my cramps during my 1st pregnancy.
This morning I was like 'Fxxx, why cramp when hubby not around?!' I almost scream for help and in my mind I'm thinking: 'should I shout for mil? fil? or sil?' But ended up, I endured the pain in silence and do the massage myself as I do not want to scared the family just because of this stupid cramps...
So, I am brave! Hahaha~~~
Hubby not with me when the cramp strike as he's in reservist. I was in total daze, don't know what to do cause hubby will massaged my leg when I had my cramps during my 1st pregnancy.
This morning I was like 'Fxxx, why cramp when hubby not around?!' I almost scream for help and in my mind I'm thinking: 'should I shout for mil? fil? or sil?' But ended up, I endured the pain in silence and do the massage myself as I do not want to scared the family just because of this stupid cramps...
So, I am brave! Hahaha~~~
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Today is my...
... Hubby's birthday! Poor boy, gonna spend his special day in camp.
Happy Birthday to my Dearest Hubby!
Always your Wifey, your Darling
*Mauckzzzz*
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