Little bit here, little bit there...

Time really flies.. just another 3 days, I will be in my 31st week of pregnancy. Just 9 weeks more to my delivery and only 7 weeks more to start my maternity leaves!

Oh gosh~~ I start to have mixed feelings in some ways.. Everything of my life got to 'restart' again. I'm gonna be a 'new mum' all over again after 4 years. The thoughts of having to carry, to feed, to bathe, to look after a newborn suddenly seems so unfamiliar to me.

In summary, I'm scare yet excited...

I'm afraid I won't be able to handle it, I'm afraid I will cry even for just a very minor thing. I'm afraid I will neglect Fayth. There's just so many things that I'm afraid I can't do it, I can't handle the upcoming stress.

While I'm excited in another way... this will be another new journey of my life. My new life will consist of Hubby, Fayth and baby. It's no longer just the 3 of us but 4. I'm a mum of 2 at the age of 27!!

That means, I will need to do alot of beauty regime in order not to look haggard and old! I don't want to look like age 37 yet I'm only in my 27! I HAVE to gain back my weight and waist to pre-pregnancy figure of 44kg, waistline of 24". I want to fit back into my jeans and dresses!! No saggy breast and no excess fats please... It's horrible and scary and it will definitely bring down my self esteem and confidence. I want to be a modern, pretty mama, not an auntie that you will see in those wet market cause I don't go market, I only frequent to NTUC and Cold Storage!

Gosh~~ seems like I'm suffering pre-natal depression??!! Hahaha~~~~ no la, I'm not. :)

Anyway, I will think more of the positive and happy things. I will enjoy my final trimester of pregnancy to the fullest. As much as I wanted to enjoy, I'm getting heavier each passing days... Anything that requires me to bend down or lift up my legs like getting up from bed/floor, bending down to pick up Fayth's toys, using a squatted toilet bowl, bathing Fayth, wearing my short has become an uneasy task for me now. Much less to say wash my feet properly when I bathe or to cut my toe nails! So, this is 1 of a good excuse for me to go pedicure every 2 weeks.

I just had my pedicure done last Sunday. I told the lady: 'Pls help me wash my feet and clean my inner nails properly as I haven't been able to clean them for 3 weeks...' Guess that lady must be feeling gross by just looking at my feet! Hahahaha~~~~

Think more or less I've decided on baby's name. It will be either Mikayle or Kayle, meaning 'Gift From God'. Chinese name will decide after baby is born but we've come up a few list.. Jia Xin, Jia Xuan, Jia Le.

There are just so many things I need to do and think before and after delivery which I had ended up with a 'To do list', 'To buy list' and 'To bring list' in order not to miss out anything important especially so IF I were to deliver early without having my hospital bag pack, my hubby will know what to bring according to my list.

Another few updates: Baby has been moving and turning more and more violently recently, maybe of the 'lack of space' in my cute little tummy. 1 of my colleague even seen the 'war' coming from my tummy. Once, I put hubby's hand onto my tummy while he was reading paper and he suddenly go: "wa! what is she doing inside?!" So now hubby know why I'm always awake in wee hours....

And to date, No stretch marks, yet (touchwood!). Occasionally do have some itchiness and I controlled myself not to scratch, just a little hand rubbing do helps a little but better then nothing!

To pen it off, I'm going for my monthly check up next Tuesday. Shall see how much weight gain!!

Till then~~~