My thoughts...

Am I being over sensitive or is some of my changes affected my mood without even I notice it myself?

The last met up with the girls was on Jan 22 for CNY reunion dinner and it has since 1 month 3 days or 34 days (to be exact) since I last saw them. I tried arranged meet up for dinner for 2-3 times but always ended up canceled due to ABC reasons. I never blame anybody for any reason that resulted our meet up to be canceled as I know they got something on. But am thinking, why can they meet up so easily with their colleagues or even ex colleagues but not with our own ZPGY group?

We used to meet up every weekly or at least once every 2 weeks, but not now anymore. Sometimes I wonder, will our less meet up create communication break down? A secret was kept with me without letting anyone know but due to this, people seems to be a little piss with me for not telling them. Am I wrong for not saying out?

And, so many things had happened to me during this short 1 month and wanted so much to tell them, share my joy, sadness and worries with them but they are always not there....even a simple Skype with them, also seldom able to get a proper reply due to their work load.

Am I behaving like a small child who wanted attention from them? They are my only confidante, my 知心女友. If I don't turn to them, don't share my everything, who else?

If ZPGY can be replace by others so easily then I can tell them now and from here that I don't need you girls at all, I won't call and find you anymore. I can handle every problems myself, alone.

ZPGY - 什麼是朋友? 什麼是<豬朋狗友> ????

My Excitement...

I can't content my excitement since day 1 but I insist in announcing it later...

Just 4 more weeks and I'll proudly announce what my excitement was...

Just 26 days more and I'll share my joy with all...

Be patience :)